The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. Saying hello to a slowing phase of life

It has finally arrived, that moment where I reluctantly admit that my body will no longer allow me to operate at the pace I had grown to love nor to do all the things I have loved to do.

The last two weeks saw me at three back-to-back conferences: the Beyond Justice Festival in Canberra; Baptistcare Australia national conference in Perth; and Micah Australia’s Voices for Justice. I’m used to schedules like this, and in the past have always found them energising. But this time was different. By the second last day of the Micah event I was much more tired than I normally would be, my tremor was more pronounced than usual, and my muscles stiffened for longer periods of time than they otherwise would. I found myself needing to skip some events to simply rest and recuperate. For the first time Parkinsons was more than a nuisance. Up until this point I could still do just about everything I wanted to, I just had to do it a little bit slower or find a workaround. But I have now reached the point where there are some things I simply can no longer do.

No doubt others have sensed this earlier than I have. It is the nature of the beast that I am reluctant to admit to the limitations of the disease, holding out against them as long as possible. Indeed, I have not wanted to admit it but I have seen the signs for the last couple of months, as I found it harder to get going in the mornings, not really hitting my straps physically until my meds kicked in mid-morning/lunchtime.

I do not feel angry or sad. I knew this time was coming, and now that it has arrived and I am willing to recognise it, it just feels like a natural stage of progression. I do feel a sense of loss, not a sharp pang of grief, but a wistful goodbye to one stage of life.

Not that I’m ready to give up just yet. I’ll continue to pursue justice and work with churches to help them get their head around issues of justice and take action on them. But for the first time in my life I will have to very intentionally pace myself, making sure I focus upon those things that are really priorities, and maximising those times I am physically most able.

I expect this season of slowing will be frustrating but I also expect it will bring its own gifts. As I say goodbye to the full throttle phase of my life I look back with thankfulness on what it gave me.  It has passed, and this post is my way of saying goodbye to it and saying hello to the slowing phase. “Goodbye old friend,  it was a pleasure to walk with you. Welcome new friend. I may be slow to learn,  an impatient companion, but I look forward to the ways you will grace my life.”

 

Subscribe
Notify of
guest
82 Comments
Oldest
Newest Most Voted
Inline Feedbacks
View all comments
Brendan Wood
Brendan Wood
5 years ago

Really enjoyed catching up in Canberra and Perth. I insist that this new season still includes coming down for a fish on the Hawkesbury once the action picks up. Go well mate.

Brendan Wood
Brendan Wood
5 years ago

Brendan Wood liked this on Facebook.

Pip Miner
Pip Miner
5 years ago

Thank you Scott.

Rebecca Roberts
5 years ago

Rebecca Roberts liked this on Facebook.

Todd Darvas
5 years ago

Todd Darvas liked this on Facebook.

Karina Kreminski
5 years ago

Karina Kreminski liked this on Facebook.

Ross Clifford
5 years ago

Ross Clifford liked this on Facebook.

Tanya Benton
5 years ago

Tanya Benton liked this on Facebook.

Pip Miner
Pip Miner
5 years ago

Pip Miner liked this on Facebook.

Meralyn Zimmer
5 years ago

Meralyn Zimmer liked this on Facebook.

Sylvia Jones
Sylvia Jones
5 years ago

We know we are but clay and not high tensile steel, but when the effects of clay emerge, either with age or defect, it is very levelling. You are an inspiration my brother.

Tabitha Horsley Noonan
Tabitha Horsley Noonan
5 years ago

This is lovely. Thanks Scott.

Dave Rowe
Dave Rowe
5 years ago

Lovely – thanks Scott.

Jill Birt
Jill Birt
5 years ago

I sense grace continues to overflow. Travel well Scott.

Natalie Anne
5 years ago

Natalie Anne liked this on Facebook.

Monique ten Hoopen
5 years ago

Monique ten Hoopen liked this on Facebook.

Penny Pickering
5 years ago

Penny Pickering liked this on Facebook.

Dan Beasy
5 years ago

Dan Beasy liked this on Facebook.

Steve Bevis
5 years ago

Steve Bevis liked this on Facebook.

Wendy Creamer
5 years ago

Wendy Creamer liked this on Facebook.

Christine Redwood
5 years ago

Christine Redwood liked this on Facebook.

Melinda Cousins
5 years ago

Melinda Cousins liked this on Facebook.

Shane Fenwick
5 years ago

Shane Fenwick liked this on Facebook.

Ralph Reilly
5 years ago

Ralph Reilly liked this on Facebook.

Steve Cooke
5 years ago

Steve Cooke liked this on Facebook.

Alan Marr
5 years ago

Alan Marr liked this on Facebook.

Andrew Dodd
Andrew Dodd
5 years ago

Let’s make it a “slow” coffee then later today.

Marcus Arnold
5 years ago

Marcus Arnold liked this on Facebook.

Dorcas White
5 years ago

Dorcas White liked this on Facebook.

Benton Wecker
5 years ago

Benton Wecker liked this on Facebook.

Geoff Broughton
5 years ago

Geoff Broughton liked this on Facebook.

Karen Lee
5 years ago

Karen Lee liked this on Facebook.

Ashley
Ashley
5 years ago

No matter what stage of life you are in you will always be an inspiration to me, I am immensely proud to call you dad x

Cathie Howard
Cathie Howard
5 years ago

there are blessings in a quieter stiller life…..you are doing well and have a good attitude…miss seeing you…

Michelle Terry
5 years ago

Michelle Terry liked this on Facebook.

Jody Lightfoot
5 years ago

Jody Lightfoot liked this on Facebook.

Hazel Shute
5 years ago

Hazel Shute liked this on Facebook.

Sandy Higgins
Sandy Higgins
5 years ago

My beautiful man ????????????

Faye Hudson
Faye Hudson
5 years ago

God Bless you Scott.

Jane Thompson
Jane Thompson
5 years ago

Thank you for sharing…. You are an inspiration to us all!!!! Big hug xx

Susan Clarke
5 years ago

Susan Clarke liked this on Facebook.

Richard Morrison
5 years ago

Richard Morrison liked this on Facebook.

Tilly Dee
5 years ago

Tilly Dee liked this on Facebook.

Faye Hudson
Faye Hudson
5 years ago

Faye Hudson liked this on Facebook.

Geff-Jeannie Gomez
5 years ago

Geff-Jeannie Gomez liked this on Facebook.

Sandy Higgins
Sandy Higgins
5 years ago

Sandy Higgins liked this on Facebook.

Thomas W Schmid
5 years ago

Thomas W Schmid liked this on Facebook.

Alison Walter
Alison Walter
5 years ago

I have no doubt that in this slowing phase of life you will continue to have a great impact on this world. You are an inspirational man with a positive attitude I just cannot ever see you on the sideline in this game of life.

Renee Edmonds
Renee Edmonds
5 years ago

WOW! what a wonderful thing to read, truly encouraging to me in my own struggles! Thank you for your honesty and willingness to share, God bless

Philip Zylstra
Philip Zylstra
5 years ago

You’re a remarkable man Scott, I hope I develop some of your strength in time.

Scott Higgins
Scott Higgins
5 years ago
Reply to  Philip Zylstra

very generous phil

By Scott
82
0
Would love your thoughts, please comment.x
()
x
Tweet
Share